The unknown

Exploring the mysteries of life and loss, and finding strength in the face of the unknown. This page is dedicated to the feelings and questions that linger after Ethan's passing.

Endless tears and unwavering love

I wake up with endless tears and hold them back. I get up and get dressed, eat, sleep, sometimes even laugh. But my laugh stops at my throat, I don't know if that even makes sense. I am grateful for my other children they bring me light and love in my hurting heart oh boy do I love them. And my friends and family have been angels on earth.

A million pieces

I feel Ethan next to me all the time but it hurts to not know what he's doing, where he is, what he's seeing, what he's hearing, what he's permitted to do, and most importantly when will I see him again. That rips my heart into a million pieces. But I'm still here...

Still here

Even in the face of the unknown, Ethan's spirit and the love surrounding him continue to provide strength and light. This page serves as a reminder of the enduring bond and the hope for reunion.

Add comment

Comments

Jackie

4 days ago

Coming to this page as an outlet to remember and soak in everything that is Ethan is such a blessing. I miss him every single day, every single minute—but how blessed are we to have known him. There will never be another soul as special as yours. God created you so perfectly, and every second without you is felt and missed so deeply. I love you forever, Ethan and I will carry every memory we made together with me always. I wish I could’ve had you with me forever, but now you are forever my angel. I can’t wait to eat, dance and laugh with you so hard when our time is again. Forever and always my honey.❤️

Isabelle

a month ago

Alex, you are hurting… you’ve experienced life changing moments….. losing Ethan is unbearable… But one thing is for sure… this foreign feeling is setting you up a new purpose… new testimony…. A new YOU….
I will continue to “ remind” you that you have such a great purpose on this earth… you have dealt with things that were meant to break you down, but you prevailed…
I will never be in a position to tell you how to grief… BUT I urge you to continue to let your faith guide you, continue to smile and laugh of the great memories you shared with Ethan ( it may be hard to pick one…. or two …..or even three) Ethan did not disappoint 😎😂…
Grief is not something that can be explained, it can only be felt by the person experiencing it… so, continue to pray for strength and resilience…. We will not question our father, but we will continue to trust him and believe there is a reason he recalled his angel…
I love you to

Skyler

Ethan was truly one of a kind. He lit up a room with laughter and joy even when he was in the worst pain. Everyday is hard without him but he gave me motivation to keep going. I remember countless days in the hospital where he was still continuing his education while fighting the biggest battle of his life. No one is as strong as him and meeting someone like that I am forever grateful for.

Seeing the sibling bond Noah and Ethan had always reminds me of my sister and I. I promised myself to never take that for granted because it could be gone within a second.

Ethan you are so missed by everyone. I miss your jokes. I miss seeing you get mad when your mom would make you eat spinach every morning. I miss seeing you light up when you talked about your honey. I even miss you showing your butt on FaceTime surprising lol.You made this family whole. We love you so much Ethan.