Hurts to think about you but love it

I woke up not wanting to do anything but I managed to shower, take my meds and just decided to make it a relax day. When I think of you not being here it hurts so much that i sometimes occupy my mind with mindless shows. Everyone has moved on in their own way. Not forgetting you but finding distractions to help them deal with your physical presence not being here and the pain that comes with it. Ethan, I will never stop missing you and never stop thinking about you and I will never let anyone tell me to get over it, because I cannot. With that said, I am looking forward to a burger tonight, have not eaten yet and I know you were particular about your burgers and that was your last meal. I love you my dear boy and MISS YOU!