The Holidays Without You Here With Us

As Christmas approaches, they warned me it would be tough. I had no idea it would be this tough. This is excruciating on all levels not having you physically present. This page is dedicated to remembering and honoring Ethan during the holiday season.

The Biggest Gift

But most of all I wish with every cell in my being that the biggest gift that could have been given to you was a long, happy and healthy life.

How do i go on without you?

Missing Your Presence

I miss you asking a month in advance what are we making for Christmas brunch and dinner. I miss hearing you make plans with your friends. I miss seeing your face light up when you’d hear your siblings were coming to town. I miss how you’d want to cheat and open the gifts under the tree before Christmas. I miss you opening them and being so grateful when you got what you wanted and run around the house with joy.

In loving memory

Forever in Our Hearts

I’ll never forget your physical presence and jumping on my bed and screaming in your room while playing video games and just being you. And talking to Jackie on the phone and saying bye mom, I’m ok. Oh my baby boy, my love, my Loulou. I know you’re still with us but not being able to hug you kills me. I thank God for the many pictures and happy we captured some pictures, the red one is our last Christmas one together. If only we knew……

"I love you forever and always."

Mom

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Jackie

4 days ago

Coming to this page as an outlet to remember and soak in everything that is Ethan is such a blessing. I miss him every single day, every single minute—but how blessed are we to have known him. There will never be another soul as special as yours. God created you so perfectly, and every second without you is felt and missed so deeply. I love you forever, Ethan and I will carry every memory we made together with me always. I wish I could’ve had you with me forever, but now you are forever my angel. I can’t wait to eat, dance and laugh with you so hard when our time is again. Forever and always my honey.❤️

Isabelle

a month ago

Alex, you are hurting… you’ve experienced life changing moments….. losing Ethan is unbearable… But one thing is for sure… this foreign feeling is setting you up a new purpose… new testimony…. A new YOU….
I will continue to “ remind” you that you have such a great purpose on this earth… you have dealt with things that were meant to break you down, but you prevailed…
I will never be in a position to tell you how to grief… BUT I urge you to continue to let your faith guide you, continue to smile and laugh of the great memories you shared with Ethan ( it may be hard to pick one…. or two …..or even three) Ethan did not disappoint 😎😂…
Grief is not something that can be explained, it can only be felt by the person experiencing it… so, continue to pray for strength and resilience…. We will not question our father, but we will continue to trust him and believe there is a reason he recalled his angel…
I love you to

Skyler

Ethan was truly one of a kind. He lit up a room with laughter and joy even when he was in the worst pain. Everyday is hard without him but he gave me motivation to keep going. I remember countless days in the hospital where he was still continuing his education while fighting the biggest battle of his life. No one is as strong as him and meeting someone like that I am forever grateful for.

Seeing the sibling bond Noah and Ethan had always reminds me of my sister and I. I promised myself to never take that for granted because it could be gone within a second.

Ethan you are so missed by everyone. I miss your jokes. I miss seeing you get mad when your mom would make you eat spinach every morning. I miss seeing you light up when you talked about your honey. I even miss you showing your butt on FaceTime surprising lol.You made this family whole. We love you so much Ethan.